Brownie

Trying to focus on the positive things that have come out of Maddox being lost this past year.. I shared some of the babies Maddox saved.. I actually printed the collage I made and it is right above my computer so I look at it every day several times.. I love all the babies Maddox has saved... I also of course get home to Maddox's two sisters.. Bliss & Brownie. I shared Bliss with you last week since it was the year anniversary of me finding her.. Today wanted to share Brownie..

is a total accident.. When I had to return to Cali, I guess I felt like since I couldn't go post signs and go on sighting calls for Maddox, I wanted to save every other baby.. The shelters in Cali are so full and it breaks my heart.. There are also so many Min Pins.. I feel like I am sent a new one every day.. Anyways I started networking and sharing and fostering and transporting and doing everything I could to help these babies.. I ended up adopting Brownie from the Carson shelter to save her life.. When I saw her picture at the shelter at only 7 months old my heart just broke.. I knew I had to save her.. Well now she is part of our family.. She is a little goofball. She is quite the baby and likes to cry alot to get her way. LOL I think she is a Min Pin/Italian Greyhound mix because has a very skinny body and skinny tail...All 6 lbs of her..

Her and Bliss are definitely sisters. Sometimes they fight but most of the time they just steal things from each other and play and they even snuggle... She loves to give her Daddy kisses and licks him to death.. And she loves to always be touching me.. She is either on my lap or lays on my legs.. She likes to play with toys but doesn't like to play fetch like Maddox. she just plays and throws things on her own.. And rolls around on the floor with her toys..

I love both these little girls.. They are not Maddox and nobody can or will ever replace Maddox but they have been good for me.. There are times I think they know I am sad since they just lay by me... I can't wait for them to meet their brother.. I will never give up on Maddox.. I love him so much and miss him so much!

Bliss

A year ago today I was searching for Maddox Miniature Pinscher Lost in Okc but instead I found a sweet little baby girl named "BLISS".. I was looking back on my posts from this day and I remember how emotional it was... When I found her I really thought she was going to be Maddox but then when she wasn't I was in tears and so sad she wasn't Maddox but I also fell in love..

She was with rescue for several months while we looked for her family that we never found. She is now living with us in California and waiting for her Brother to come home. She is one of the sweetest little girls but also will tell you when she doesn't want or like something She LOVES to chase squirrels and is not afraid to get a little dirty to climb up the tree! She is opposite Maddox in that doesn't really love toys but will play with them sometimes.. She LOVES treats and dinner time! I couldn't get Maddox to eat ANYthing and she eats EVERYthing! LOL She has her own FB p[age I share pictures and videos called "Min Pin Bliss"

Back then I posted several times a day so thought I would just share the first hand posts from night before and day of that tell the story..  So here is the story... HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLISS!! Today is your special day and your family loves you so much!!!

Jan 20, 2013 Late Evening: New Possible Sighting ALERT: We got 2 different calls that a baby that looked ALOT like Maddox was all the way out on 150th between County Line & Council... We ran out the door so that is why posting now.. By the time we got there he had disappeared in the dark again & there are ALOT of places he could be hiding.. Two different people saw him & both tried to stop but said he was really scared & ran away... =(((( It is a big family lot with several houses & trees, a dam & a lake so it was very difficult to see in the dark but I walked around calling his name but no sign of him.. =(( I left food & a ball & my socks so he smells my scent.. All the family members on the lot are going to keep an eye out tonight & I will be back there BEFORE sunrise!! Please keep the prayers going!! I pray this is my baby & we find him in the morning!!! Maddox mommy misses you so much! Please stay near that area tonight so we can go back to California tomorrow!!

Jan 21, 2013 Morning: Well was at the latest sighting since about 5:30am... Was there way before sunrise & it was not my sweet baby.... It was another very adorable female Min Pin...I've been trying all day to catch her with no luck.. BUT we are trying to trap her now!! Silly girls went into trap twice already but she is so little the lever did not work but she seems to be staying in area so confident we will catch her! I will keep you posted!

Jan 21, 2013 Evening: Well our search for Maddox saved 2 other Min Pins today! It is breaking my heart that neither were my sweet baby boy... But glad we are helping others find their homes!~

Early this morning literally at 5:30am I woke up and drove around & canvased the property from the sighting from last night. Then as soon as the sun rose, I started walking the property, through the woods, around the dam, by the lake, etc.. Then around 9am at the edge of the property behind a shed we found this sweet baby girl.. When I first got to her I gave her a bunch of treats & she even let me pet her so I tried to snatch her up but she bit me and ran away. Then literally all day I kept an eye on her, she would let me get close and sit by her & even pet her a few times but then something would make her run away.. We set up a big trap & put lots of yummy food in there & she went in there about 3-4 times and ate all the food but she was so little the trap door never went down! She even sat on the lever while she ate the food!!! Then we finally captured her without the trap.. I sat by her and distracted her & Brenda slipped a leash over her head! She is now in good hands! Thanks to Brenda!!! She is super cute too!

Then just got back from a call of another Min Pin found around 122nd & MacArthur.. His name was Tyson.. His Mommy called us earlier in case we received calls and as soon as we got the call we knew it was him.. We hoped it was Maddox but it was Rocky so he is now back home with his mommy & daddy!

Babies SAVED

This journey with Maddox has been filled with ups & downs and so bitter sweet. I have had moments where I don’t know if I can keep going. My heart just hurts so bad and I have truly not been myself since my baby got lost a year ago. The love for your child is so powerful and all I want to do is protect him and not being able to and not knowing where his is, is unbearable. I miss Maddox so much and can’t even explain the pain I have been feeling. I know some days my posts are probably really hard to read because I am so down that all I do is cry. I had told myself I need to start being more positive and trying to live my life again.. It’s just hard and especially hard when you have personal attacks against you. I am very sensitive if you haven’t noticed and I really take things to heart. It hurts when people say such mean things. But someone told me “Jackie you are an incredible woman and a warrior for the Lord. Don’t’ ever feel alone or too the point you can’t go on. He is with you always just as I am. He will give you strength and peace if you let him. Satan is attacking you because Maddox has brought so many together that LOVE the Lord. He will continue to answer our prayers.”

I do realize so many blessings have come out of this nightmare also. I have always said everything happens for a reason and I truly believe Maddox was put on this earth to do amazing things. He has already done so many amazing things!

This quote was one that my sister sent me.. 
“Hard times are often blessings in disguise. Let go and let life strengthen you. No matter how much it hurts, hold your head up and keep going. This is an important lesson to remember when you’re having a rough day, a bad month, or a crappy year. Things will unquestionably change – you will not feel this way forever. Truth be told, sometimes the hardest lessons to learn are the ones your spirit needs most. Your past was never a mistake if you learned from it. So take all the crazy experiences and lessons and place them in a box labeled “Thank You.” You simply can’t feel real happy unless you’ve felt heartache. You can’t have a sense of victory unless you know what it means to fail. You can’t know what it’s like to feel whole until you know what it’s like to feel completely shattered. And you can’t be rebirthed until you’ve passed on from who you used to be.”